He saved his own skin by donning deception
It was my word against his

Man of God, they depend on you to tell the truth

And I was left holding my head in my hands
My “father” doesn’t love me anymore
But “daddy”, why don’t you love me?

So, which is it?
Is it the ex-father figure or the crumbling minister?
One disowned me because I confronted him
The other speaks destruction from his pulpit to deride me
The one who claimed to be a protector became a predator
The one who claimed to be a teacher became a heckler

So, which is it? Both or neither or one or the other?
I’m not sure.
“Anyone who looks at a woman lustfully…”
I may be the only one who believes that his attention was unwanted
“… has already committed adultery with her in his heart.”
But I did not consent!

I ran from him and hid myself
But he pursued and sought me
O condemning voices, HEAR ME OUT
I could not stop his wandering eyes
He blames me for his wandering mind

Though scarlet satin lined his heart
I resisted with all I had
I am more than my image, but

God forbid a man like him
Should look upon me shamefully

He hates me because I exposed his sin.

By night he makes a bloody scourge
While I fall prey to slander
My Pearl knows who her father is
But she cannot understand my anger

My “father” never loved me
His touching words were empty
His heart too needy
His eyes too hungry
He was the hired hand.

Man of God, they depend on you to tell the truth

But perhaps he’s muddled the truth beyond recognition
Because, you see, he can do no wrong
The world is slanted towards him
While I am cast away
And though he blames my beauty
His pride will be his ruin

I pray for vindication
And in silence I await it
My God is my Father, my protector, my teacher, and my avenger.
God knows the hearts of men.
I look forward to the day these secrets are shouted from rooftops.

My God is a God of justice and of mercy.
My heart cries out for both.

“Whom have I in heaven but God?
And there is none upon earth I desire besides God.
My flesh and my heart fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.”